I absolutely love being pregnant and think I’m pretty good at just going along with all the changes to my body too. Im not at all in denial that my belly will get big, my boobs will treble in size, my hips will widen, my feet will swell, my face will balloon and I will gain rolls in places I didn’t even know they could exist, yet, somehow I’m fine with that (you have to earn the baby on board badge somehow!). What I’m not fine with is the aftermath, ‘the empty shell’ as I call it.
After having Isla, I didn’t anticipate just how different my body would look. I’ve written on here before and will say it again, I thought I would give birth and look like the old me but I certainly didn’t. I was told so many times ‘you’ll snap back’ YEAH SNAP BACK MY ASS – I was left with a jelly belly, loose skin, a swollen face and was just generally bigger all over, not to mention my hideous boobs. For some reason I thought it would all go away and get flushed out in the birthing pool… wrong!
I think the after birth hormones and just the general huge overnight change to your life also impacts on how you feel at the time but I can honestly say I’m not expecting it to be any easier second time round. I’m finding this pregnancy more difficult to begin with so I’m taking a lead now and with all the will in the world I hope to be left with a body I feel more comfortable in when I get to the other side.
During my first pregnancy I was told that when you reach the final trimester you need to increase your calorie intake by 1 banana and that’s it. I laughed. I laughed so hard and then I cried even harder 1 day post baby when I looked in the mirror and realised I should have listened. This time I’m not making that mistake and I’m making a conscious effort to eat for 1 and not 2.
I’m also back in the gym 2/3 times a week and I’m really enjoying it. I didn’t realise how much I would still be capable of and how good exercise would make me feel. It’s also a chance for me to take some time out from the hectic day to day and connect with my body and the baby. In my first pregnancy I spent a lot of time listening to my body and I felt like I really knew Isla before she was even born but this time round I haven’t had that luxury yet. Exercising definately helps me to bridge that gap and I will hopefully train up until the baby arrives.
My body is changing for something incredible and everyday I’m so grateful that it allows me to carry my children. Unfortunately I can’t help the way I feel afterwards and as much I would love to be someone who can embrace it, wear it with pride and walk around in a ‘mum tum and what!’ t-shirt, that just isn’t me. I won’t allow thoughts of how I might look post pregnancy to control the here and now but I think making some slight considerations to my diet and exercise will make all the difference and it’s better for the baby.
I wanted to share this with you all as I know it’s easy to look at Instagram accounts and think everything is perfect. Everyone is facing there own little demons and thats perfectly normal.
P.s. I’ve posted on Instagram about going to the gym and have recieved messages asking what exercises I’m currently doing so I was thinking.. should I film a workout video? This would be a first for me which I would be well nervous to do but it’s boring staying in your comfort zone right? Send me a message on Instagram and let me know what you all think.
Thanks for reading!
Lots of love